Words I Live by

Jeremiah 29:11"For I know the plans I have for you," says the Lord. "They are plans for good and not for disaster, to give you a future and hope."

So you are set out to destroy me and whatever I have going for me it is not going to work. I know God's got me in his hands. There are times when I just want to give up, but I look at this scripture and realize God is not set out to destroy me. I hear several people tell me "You have to go through tests in order to have a testimony"

I am being tested, and it is beyond hard, but I am getting through it. Thank God for blessing me with my family, because they keep me going. If I wanted to give up I could've given up a long time ago. I came this far, there is NO point in Going back now.

Things really do happen for a reason. Ready to see what God has up his sleeve. And this time.... I know I am ready for whatever he has in store, because what God has for me it is for me.

nothing to say

I haven't been posting any blogs as you can see, it's only because I have so much to say, but I just don't know how to say it or put it in writing. I feel like My brain is overcrowded with a bunch of crap that doesn't need to be in there. It's filled with questions, doubts, dreams, and wishes.
Alot of doubts and questions are towards people I am involved with. I am slowly learning who I should be closer to and who should be "Cut Off", plain and simple. I don't even want to ask questions anymore, that question that I always ask God when I meet someone new " What is this person's reason for being in my life?" I don't even stress that anymore. I know God knows what he is doing so I will not doubt or question God's spontaneous ways of dealing with my abnormal life. Right now I am only writing whatever random thoughts that are going through my brain. I am not writing every thought. Just some. Writing about all of them would be mental suicide for anyone to read.
Just recently I realized that two more people walked out of my life, it's cool though. Have you ever had a moment when you actually wanted to care, but you don't? O well that's life. I heard the saying that "when people want to walk out of your life, Let Them Go!" So I did. And you know what? It made my life so much easier, to not stress over one loss of something that was meant to be out of your life in the first place. When you know you have been nothing, but good to the person you were "cool" with and they leave you hanging, and you feel like they don't have a care in this world about your feelings Let Them Go! because I take it as, they don't care, and if they don't care, that means they aren't losing sleep over you. so Don't lose sleep over them.

anyways i am not writing this blog because I am upset. I just felt like writing something. My mood right now is "whatever". Life is Life, and As long as you are living, live it!